Friday, April 14, 2006
I feel useless. super useless. maybe is not just a feeling, maybe it is the fact. When my friends are sad, I hope and i want to be always there for them, I want to lend my ear, lend my shoulder and try to listen to their problems, their unhappiness, I don't mind being a big huge pillow and let them hit, as long as they feel happier after that, I will feel happy too. All I want is to see people happy. When I am sad, I hope and want a person by my side, I want to say out my problems too. But somehow, through all the experiences in my primary school and in the past,I can no longer share my problems with anyone, all I can do is just bottled up the stuffs in my heart. But now I got this blog, and at least I can let out some things which I can say out. hmm. aren't I useless? =( I want to go ALL again, although I went to it once, and I can't really rememeber how to get there, but i really want to go again. I miss my first time carry a cat, I miss the first time making the food for them, I miss the first time being scratched by a cat, I missed the first time washing their cages for them, I miss the first time being surrounded by alot of cats. I really miss the place. I may have forgotten where it is, but I am sure, no matter what I will try to get back to the place again, even though my dad may still won't allow me to go anymore, I will still try my best to go. I want to go to dolphin bay too, everytime I feel sad, I will want to sit by the beach at dolphin bay, although I know that is quite impossible, but never mind. But I really want to experience, waiting for a dolpin to leap out of the water, I really want to touch and feel the clear and clean sea water n sand. I want to go ther ONE DAY!
Sometimes, I got irritated by people, however, actually at the other side, people get irritated by me too. No matter what, I just want to say that, when you hurt other, when you think of others in that way, you will never know or realise someone feel the same way about u too. Spare a thought for people, you will be sparing a thought for youself too.
seeya.. take care..
mad was here b4.
thats what friends are for;
10:36 PM
