Friday, October 21, 2005
This Final Year Exam is really a very big blow to a lot of sec 3s.... I am one of them too.. But for some is really very bad.... Haix... how much I hope to help them... But they have to help themselves first.... I am very disappointed with myself... and I told myself to cheer up... and do better next time... I am going to throw myself into the piles of books during the holidays.. and also do other things during the holidays....
Today I had choir practice... I was very happy... cos Jane and Farzira join choir today! Our choir had 2 more people.... so happy... =) I hoped they enjoyed themselves.... Today choir was taught by my assistant instructor... he taught us some weird but interesting and great warm-ups... =) Then we learnt new songs.... all the songs are nice... I so happy.... somemore got japanese song..... how nice..... I love the X'mas song... so nice.... =) I will be waiting for more new and nice X'mas songs.... X'mas songs are always nice.... =D hees....
ok... now the sad thing..... This thing totally upset me alot.... I am even more disappointed now....very very upset... went home today... and ya... I showed my parents my results.... and their mood changed... their expression changed.... cos I failed 3 subjects and except for chinese 72, the rest all 50 plus... They were super disappointed... they scolded me... asked me to reflect... I am ok for the scoldings.... cause I know I didn't do my very best although I tried alot... and I slack alot too... So i didn't blame them... it was right for them to scold me...and I know they were super super disappointed.... and of course I was too.... That was my worst results I ever had...and I hope it will be the last time.. I was prepared for their scoldings.... but i never thought that my dad would say this....:' can u retained? go ask ur principal to retain u in sec 3.... or ask to drop to NA' I was so shocked to hear that....and i was so utterly disappointed and upset.... Many people tried to prevent being retain and he ask me to be retain... I know his reasons mayb he don't want me to go sec 4 and suffer more.... but i was just so upset... I promised myself to strive my best during the holidays... and spent at least 80% of my time in my studies.... But... haix.... and my mother said is all because of my activities... CCA and council... ='( is all my own fault... nothing to do with the activities.... If I managed my time well... all these wouldn't happen...
What should I do now? What should I say? I can't blame them... like what people say... parents always think good for their children... But... I am jus so upset... Haix... nothing more to say.... I will be fine soon.... yep... soon... after a sleep everything is gonna be different....
It will be a new day tomorrow....
Mad was here b4....
utterly upset at this moment...
i need my guardian angel... ='(
thats what friends are for;
7:14 PM
