Thursday, August 04, 2005
I guess is the first time i blogged twice in a day? Haix... I dun noe wad happened...After watching the Khao Lak Video for the 3rd time... I was so so so upset now... super super upset... not because I can't see much of me appearing.. But is because all the memories at Khao Lak flow back... So touching and unforgettable memories...And suddenly, I asked myself... Did I realli cherish the trip to Khao Lak... Did I really go there to help the people there? I jus feel so stuck at these questions... I only realised that I go there did not do anything much but paint and paint and make balloons... I don't even noe any single of the student there... I don't think i go there is jus for making all these things... I think we are supposed to leave a memorable memory for the children... But obviously I didn't...I wasn't even friendly to them at all...I didn't even make an effort to try to communicate with them... Suddenly I jus feel so bad... How i wished... If i am given the chance again... I will try my very best and do all i can...But.... who asked me never cherish the first time and probably the last time I go for such trips... I also wondered why... Why is it when the 3rd time I watch the video then I realised so much... =( But now is all over... i noe is useless to feel upset... but i can't help it... =( the memories flow throught with so many so many unhappy things... I wanted to tell someone...But I jus dun noe how to say... Jus too many things to say.. I jus can't remember much... Feeling so upset and hurt...I guess I am realli more sad than happy.... =(
mad was here... [**crying]
thats what friends are for;
10:12 PM
