Saturday, March 12, 2005
Today is Music Is It!!!Early in the morning, I went shopping with my mum. So fun! I bought 2 bracelets, 1 anklet and 1 pair of earings. I was so happy!!! Finally bought some things that I wanted and liked. After shopping for some hours, I went to meet Audrey and Royce before going to school for Music Is It. Finally, we reached the school.I then realized that we are super early. I thought there will be many sec 2s stalls. However I only saw 3.So disappointed. I think this year is certainly worst than last year.So we walked around the school instead. I was so shocked when I saw 'someone'.I never expected to see him. I walked past him and said hie. But I think he simply just ignored me. Feeling a bit sad. Just don't understand. Why do I still feel a little for him?? Thought I had already forgotten it? Then we went to meet Michelle, made the poster and went for the concert. The concert was very nice! Finally the 20 mins interval. I went to the canteen for a walk. Then I saw him again...I was ignored again. It was just few months and yet even the friendship changes. Was Friendship that weak??? Then I went back for the concert. It was a bit boring. Maybe because I was getting tired. Halfway through the concert, I got a bit headache. Couldn't really concentrate and appreciate the music.Plus a bit of hurt and sad, I felt worst. Finally the concert was over. I walked down with Audrey, Michelle and Royce. Walking around the school, don't know where to go. Wondered what was really wrong with me??Why things just go the wrong way for me today?? Despite feeling a bit of headache, someone with his guitar knocked my head again. It was so painful. At that time, I nearly wanted to cry out. However, the tears just wouldn't come out. And yet... no one even noticed that. Everyone just keep doing what they are doing and they just simply keep on walking, without even looking back. I was feeling sooooo lonely and sad. I just wanted to get home fast....I was also very sorry. So sorry Royce that I did not talk to her on bus ten. Because I was just too tired, sad and feeling abit unwell... that I don't even have the energy to talk. I really wanted to cry.... But I simply just can't cry out.... I was such a failure!!! I wanted to be the one giving people light when they are down, yet I cant even maintain the lightness I have, cant even make myself happy. How am I going to giv others light??? I am so failure!!! I can't fulfil this dream of mine... I am so useless.... I am really so sad....
Just Don't understand why I get upset so easy.... Sobz...
hOPE TmL Will Be fIne....
=(
thats what friends are for;
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